On being nonbinary :]

I’m basically just explaining how I found out, my connection with it, and all that good stuff. Why? Because I CAN

I fully found out in like the 6th grade upon learning that being trans/nonbinary was possible. It honestly just felt so right. I've always felt a bit wrong being adressed as a girl and being in woman spaces, and i related to a lot of other trans experiences. Its like, I feel disconnected whenever addressed femininely, like, as if someone was calling you by some random name thats very much not yours but you're expected to respond anyways. It just feels wrong. Then, when experimenting with androgynous gender expression and being called by gender neutral name/pronouns, I just felt so much more confident and happy and like myself.  Trans joy is real!!!

As for my connection with my gender, its very much part of my identity. I know bigots complain about that, but it very much is --- just as much as being hispanic and neurodivergent are. its one of the things that make me, me. But, that doesn't mean its my whole identity and i feel that much differently from a normal person, because, I am. Just a person that wants freedom in how they express themselves and from gender expectations as a whole. Does that make sense??

Its entirely something I cant control. Honestly, if i had the choice, I would definitely be cis. But I'm not, and theres nothing I can do about that except be true to myself and be prideful in who I am.