it's time

Look, I think I understand English language enough to watch something in original, or even read a book that's written in English, but i'm never good enough to make conversations. Like, if you ever want to talk to me, you should know that every time before I send a message, I go translate it to my language and then translate it to English again, so you will be like REALLY waiting for me to answer, because I'm never sure about what I'm saying. Like, It's too scary for me to make a grammar mistake, I always think that I look like I'm stupid because I wrote something wrong. Because of It, I never talk to anyone, and It's kinda bad, because I need to get better at English and that would help. And also i sound really bad. I don't have the best pronunciation, that's for sure. So... Is there any solution? I just need to put myself together?

(I wrote it all without a translator, so you can point out my mistakes for me if you want. thanks.)