Finally go to see a doctor for my suspected ADHD, got diagnosed w/ depression instead

       I always have trouble focusing on school or during study time and my parents finally let me see a doctor last month.  

• Doc: Alright. What brings you here today?
• Me: So... I have been so bad at focusing on school subjects since middle school and it's troubling me so I want to check if I have ADHD or not and can I do anything about it?
• Doc: I see. Say, I saw that you started crying as you started to talk and you are still crying up untill now. How come?
• Me: I have been like this for like a month now. I'm not crying, it's like I'm just tearing.
• Doc: And what do you usually feel or see while you are 'tearing' like this?
• Me: I don't know. 

       I have said a lot of "I don't know" as the answers. I didn't know the reason why my tear is falling, I didn't have any thought or see any imaging while crying, I didn't feel sadness or fear either. All I knew was I had to let my tear out at least once a day and after that I felt better.

      After that, he asked about my life like people around me and what happened in the past. Lastly he asked me if I know what depression is and I answred him poorly. (I didn't know what to answered that time lol) He then told me that I have mild depression.

      So now I'm on medication and have to see the doctor and the therapist every two weeks which costs as much as my water+electric+internet bills combined ;-;. The doctor suspected that I may have something in my mind that I have been supressed for so long, so long that I forget what the cause is and I randomly cry out of nowhere without knowing why. He also said that he won't diagnos my ADHD condition for now since I still have depression but he said that it will get a lot better when my depression is cured

      I haven't felt any significant changes yet. I have never have that out of nowhere crying session for awhile now but I think it's because I'm on uni break now. My parents seem to be supportive for me, so supportive that I want to apologize to them for being born as their child. I have told my close friends about this but not my uni friends, they have talked to me before when they saw me cried uncontrollably and wanting me to go see professional help. I hope they are happy now or at least feel safe around me.

       I feel hungry now. I want to eat some bagels before going to bed but I already ate the last piece. If you guys haven't eat yet, plz consider some begels as breakfast/lunch/dinner.