On the verge of collapsing

     I got my report card today and id I told you guys that I' feeling like shit, Imma offend the shit. Like, no, seriously.

     I got an F mark on FIVE DIFFERENT SUBJECTS (out of 12, if you don't count sociomocional discipline. we don't get a grade on that one)!!!! How's that even possible?!!?!?!? I'm so disappointed of myself right now that I might even give up on writinf my 2113 page long suicide note/letter and just kill myself instantly of how ashamed I am of myself in this exact moment...

     My school has a minimum grade passing of 70%, and if you get a 69,9%, it's over for you. You gotta wait for 2 months to take again the test you failed. Yea, they failed me when I was on average 0,3 points away from the minimum grade passing... There were some i really failed (like math and physics with I got approx. 50% or even less but you don't care) but I got failed for one tenth of a point and the teacher refused to round my score!!!

     I'm afraid that my parents are going to check so early my report card and I get grounded... I never failed these much subjects, I'm genuinely considering jumping off my apartment... And if I tell them in a more chill way how I'm gonna solve all these pendencies, they're prob gonna yell at me, and if I have  a mental breakdown, they are just gonna tell "you're ok sweetie, just study more <3" and they ground me 23× harsher...

     I'm a fat ugly and stinky assholette😭 It's over for me guys💔💔💔💔

     I gotta lock in so hard💔💔💔 Wish me luck yall😭