tsunami

it's embarrassing when what you intuited comes around in this physical world. yeah i knew, but i hoped that maybe i was just paranoid due to previous experiences.. but why would i want to be wrong? why would i want my biggest superpower to be useless, weak? like, again, i'd rather see myself fail than think i let someone down. but the worst to let down is myself. i can't say i have this time, since i held on to that discernment tight, just in case. i didn't want to let my guard down, cos when i do, the wave comes in. it does. it is. while i prepared to brace the wave, i could've been coming up with a game plan. i have to stop thinking it's going to be easier to hold my breath. i end up drowning everytime. at least i packed an oxygen tank this time.