Saying Bye to Seniors is Hard

For context I'm part of my high schools honor choir and we have a tradition that during one of the last days of the school year all the underclassmen sing one of the pieces we learned that year and we write a letter to one or more seniors. This year we sang "Ad Astra" its a song about not giving up and stuff. This year is my second year in the choir and it's been a really great year for my choir. 

Today I had to say bye to seniors that I've known since my freshman year (im a junior now) and seniors I've grown close to during this school year. I didn't expect today to hit me so hard. As I wrote the letter to my senior I didn't cry or anything but when we gave our speeches the waterworks just started going. I'm not usually one to cry in front of a lot of people but ig this time was rly different. Mid song I had to look away cs I couldnt sing thru the tears lol. 

Next year I will most likely have to lead the soprano 2's as sectional leader since I have seniority over the others and I promised our current section leader that I'd do my best. I really wanna keep that promise no matter what. I'm going to miss all of them. It's so weird to know that they're leaving. Almost like I don't wanna believe it.