Thinking about Love at 19

Sometimes i like to look for a detail, a text, look into someone´s eyes, the other day i felt like i was in a Rohmer movie but without the love. My cousin of ten years said that he doesn´t want anymore girlfriends, because all of them overwhelmed him when they asked How are you?, and i instantly thought: "I like when someone ask me that". Also a friend made me understand that he is scared of love because he saw me suffer a lot. 

So i think and think a lot of times that i need love to survive. I would like that someone could love me the way i love, and i´m very afraid that someone will never be responsible with love.

If i´m capable of loving, why no one is capable of loving me?, Well it doesn´t matter, i will continue to romanticize moments and conversations, because that makes me feel alive, like love.