Searching for answers

Stab the body and it heals, but injure the heart and the wound lasts a lifetime  - Mineko Iwasaki. 

      I feel like my relationship ending has brought a whole lot of pain that I never expected. Like my heart was ripped into a million pieces and I’m just trying to put it back together. Trying to salvage any of the damage done. 

      I fell in love with someone who never truly loved me back. I fell in love giving this person every piece of me , and that could never be reciprocated. I fell in love with someone who was damaged themselves that they didn’t care that anyone else got hurt. 

       We broke and got back together many times. Just recently I’ve completely cut him off. I find myself questioning what I did wrong? Why couldn’t he love me back? Why couldn’t the attention I gave him have been enough? Why did he seek the attention of other females? Why did I try so hard and why did he not try at all? 

        I try to find these answers and the more I try searching for them the more I feel the heart break. I have to ask how long will I feel this way. Can I forget about him ? 

        There will be a time when you are forced to follow your heart away from someone you love - Ashley Lorenzana.