Thunderstorm Rambling [5.18.25]

It's very early in the morning atm. It's storming like all hell [constant flashing outside, very concentrated thunder claps, & pouring] and I needed something to get my mind off it. I hate thunderstorms. The thunder typically just bothers me rather than scares me, but it's not the most fun right now because of how close, loud, and constant it is.

I'm wearing my headphones to drown it. Otherwise, I was probably gonna have an anxiety attack and shut down. But I'm okay right now.

Listening to my favorite album of all time- so I've discovered in this moment. If you're familiar with my page, I'm very fond of Linkin Park. I love nearly every album, but am very biased towards the first three as many people are. Well, if I had to pick one, I always had trouble deciding which is my ride or die. When I started getting really nervous about the thunderstorm, I immediately ran to listen to Minutes to Midnight. It's calmed me down a ton. There's something about it that makes me favor it. It's a very cohesive album, and the blend of slower songs and heavy songs is good. 

Listening to and talking about music is very relaxing. I really just wanted to blog while I listen because it helps take my mind off things. I had my best friend sleep over at my place a couple nights recently, and I wish he was here at the moment. But he's not, so the best I got is hiding the window with the curtains because the visuals of outside scare me, piling a buncha blankets on me, listening to my favorite album, blogging, and holding my favorite little guy- a fuzzy green goat. I've always had issues with loud thunderstorms, so finding ways to help me relax during this one is incredibly calming.

I hope y'all are doing well. I just wanted to write some to redirect my thoughts. Gonna try to get some more sleep. I would like to write about a recent concept experience later! But until then,

Goodnight!

- Otis