Yapping about anything that comes to my mind

My school goes out for summer break for me next week, so the last few weeks along with next week have been/will be busy for me school-wise, between tests, projects, presentations, school events, a formal, a trip, and the play I'm in. It's actually been fun tho. But I just gotta survive this week and I'll be out of school so I'm excited for that :D

OFF TOPIC but there's this thing in my brain that always compels me to always do things a specific amount or in a specific pattern, or else I think bad things will happen (I havent been seeing my psychologist for enough time to get screened for anything but we are fairly sure its OCD). Anyways, this one isn't that bad, (I don't even think it could apply as one of these patterns i just like justifying everything i do so it doesnt seem outside of my normal) but I've found myself taking a picture with one of my (too much) plushies and then making it my Spacehey profile picture and putting it on my blog, and I've been doing it weekly. Here it is for this week XD.

OFF-OFF-TOPIC there's this thing that's been bugging me and it's really petty and it shouldn't be bugging me but it mildly bugs me. So my interests are quite common, obviously, I like Sonic, I like the emo music and subculture, I'm a simple person. But the thing is that I'm REALLY into these interests, like I can name you MOST of the Sonic games, I read all the comics, I know most of the characters, and I did a whole-ass presentation on emo culture and where it began and how it works nowadays. But the thing is that I'm a loud person, but I'm quiet about my interests to certain people. And some of my peers claim to be "number one Sonic fan" or some shit and only know Team Sonic and Team Dark. Like one of these ppl couldn't even tell me who Big the Cat was. And they nonstop talk about Sonic even though they DON'T KNOW SHIT ABOUT IT, and they REFUSE TO LEARN ANYTHING. Or like when someone calls themselves emo but doesn't bother to listen to the music or share the punk values. Like it's kinda acceptable when you're just starting out, but YOU'RE NOT PUTTING ANY EFFORT INTO THIS.

like I know it shouldn't piss me off as much as it is, but it is.

OFF-OFF-OFF-TOPIC I've become quite fond of Julian Casablancas and his work (I KNOW ITS NOT EMO OKAY I JUST LIKE IT MY TOP ARTIST IS RITES OF SPRING LEAVE ME ALONE) Julian Casablancas is kinda a shitty person, but his vibe when he was younger was cool, like at one point he was what I wanted to be ngl. Idk why I felt the need to type that.

OFF-OFF-OFF-OFF TOPIC sometimes I feel like I want a partner or at least a nice friend or someone to tell me I'm attractive or cool because I feel awful about myself sometimes and sometimes feel like I'm unloveable and think I look like the worst ever at times and then I remember I have a whole life ahead of me and I'm still young and it's whatever and we all die alone but THE FEELING LINGERS SOMETIMES ARRRGHHHHH

OFF-OFF-OFF-OFF-OFF TOPIC I love how I've been sharing thoughts from the depths of my brain that make me seem like a terrible and socially inept person on here for the public eye when I probably shouldn't, but I'm just hoping someone could relate to this stuff. But I promise I am a decent person, I usually don't act upon my meaner thoughts.

BACK ON ORIGINAL TOPIC ever since I moved to the United States when I was a small child, my parents have had a passion for moving to the lamest places ever. Right now, I live in the suburbs of one of the most boring cities of one of the boringest states in America, and I'm underage, and I can't drive, and I lack money, but DOES ANYONE KNOW THINGS I CAN DO DURING THE SUMMER THAT ARENT LAME :(((( I'm actually gonna lose my shit if I dont do anything fun over the course of three (burning hot and more than half of my wardrobe is black)  months.

If this didn't make any sense, that's that. I just had to dump my brain onto somewhere and KEEPING STUFF TO YOURSELF IS OVERRATED >:]