associations

my problem is that i think about other people too much. i can’t allow myself to feel like something i love is tainted just because someone else decided to like the same thing. i need to learn to tune others out more..

lately i’ve been trying to forget all about her and her greasy boyfriend (lord of the onion rings. no wonder why he likes LOTR; he looks like a damn hobbit.) i think it’s working. it hurts less. he can have her and her unwashed jeans, the cups she leaves sitting around her room, all the clutter she’s shown me that she never cleans. gross! 

don’t know why i was head over heels for someone like that. she didn’t have depression or anything to not want to clean, she was just lazy. i mean, i’m depressed and i always clean up after myself, soo..

in other words, i don’t know how healthy it is to turn love into resentment, but whatever makes it stop stinging, right?

love and hate are only one side of a coin away.

   —ouroboros.