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my last blogpost was really well written but this isn't gonna be like that to summarize what happened since then i fucked up my life again and got into another controversy at school my biggest and last one because i threw around the desks and chairs and shit and i felt really guilty even though this world hates me i'm the one who always apologizes over everything they make me crazy and then i say sorry like it's your fault i already got nothing left to life for
GUILT TRIP PARODY by Eray & Hits
i made this single even when i was feeling the worst i stayed up last night because i made it last night the controversy is resolved but i'm still not happy i'm so alone and desperate just like tewi speaking of tewi we started talking again but i see no hope in her she feels guilty she says she wants to change but she still doesn't or can't that won't stop me from suffering too it's too late to block her now i wish i never unblocked her in the first place but i don't really care
the careborn turned his back on me too why did he have to block me i don't know but apparently he blocked everyone but yukari and stomach and i don't know who else whatever it is i hope he takes the time to feel better and add me again it's too late for me though
i got an exam week coming up next tuesday it starts and it ends in wednesday next week maybe i'll make another single if i feel like it but it's kinda unlikely because i have to focus on my exams and after that i'm free i'm going to bursa to get a new haircut then i'm going abroad to meet up with remilia that's gonna be so epic right i hope i can get away from this mindset
i'll say this tho i went thru genuinely the worst time of my life since 8th grade and i was unable to die it's gonna sound upsetting if i talked about the details and i don't want to upset y'all in this blogpost just know that yukari's out here being my caretaker again
oh and also i left my own server again that place is really dead and now that careborn blocked me there's 0 reason to go back there i'll say let it die forever and yeah i've been busy arguing with dumb twitter people 'cause they always say i love flandre when i don't and no matter what i say or do no one believes me
that last part was kinda unnecessary i'm just rambing and also did you know that i got a third fumo during the controversy? it's a yukari fumo it's really nice but anyways that's kinda irrelevant to this blogpost i hope life gets better and i feel safe in school again i hope i can easily pass this exam week and then not worry about anything because school is over
i also wish i could make new friends or become friends with tewi or whoever is trying to reach out over the wall to me which is only tewi because no one else is reaching over the wall for me that's how fucked i am
oh and one last thing you know that i have to wear a plastic chestplate all the time because of some spine problems i'm back at those stupid exercizes again too i can still hug alice when i'm sleeping but my arms and ribs hurt when i woke up that sucks
anyways i am really dragging out this blogpost but like the title says i'll update this one overtime because i don't know when i'll release another song or album or whatever if it's that good then i'll make another post like this one bye y'all and have a nice life unlike me i wish the best for all of us
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The Rotary
I just need time away from everyone. I don’t like anyone rn and I’m the most isolated I’ve ever been. Also been the most depressed I’ve ever felt. I don’t know when I’ll talk to you again but it won’t be for a while. Last thing I wanna say is fuck everyone (especially soviet)
Y’know what fuck you all why should I be apologetic
by The Rotary; ; Report
After all I been through. You KNOW I don’t like people and now I finally take action and block everyone, now IM the bad one who gets banned n shit? Fuck you and fuck everyone else! You Pieces of shit ruined a good part of my life and made me the most shittiest I’ve ever been. I hate all of your guts and I will NEVER wanna talk to ANY of you again.
by The Rotary; ; Report
dude why are you angry about being kicked if you already hate us like why do you wanna stay in a place that you hate so much that logic makes no sense
by Sonic4; ; Report
I planned on unblocking everyone eventually when I felt better, but me being kicked is what made me think that this is permanent, so I will make it like that. That’s why I’m mad; and no I’m not mad that much about the banning, I’m much more mad about the people still. I wasted a year of my life on you dipshits and it turned out I was never truly friends with everyone cause I kept having issues
by The Rotary; ; Report
I’m basically upset cause i wanted to come back when I felt better. I also would’ve come back since all the people I hated were gone from that server, but now it seems like it flipped. Now everyone I hate is back in it. Interesting
by The Rotary; ; Report
interesting indeed... at the end it's your choice, like come back if you wanna, we the "evil" people are having fun here (the server is comparable to mid to late 2024 (before the furry times) including evil kel and not including heb. we are a dead zombie community who gives no fucks, and you don't have to stay with us if you hate us. if you hate every outcome, it's better if you go your own way. it's sad that it had to end like this tho... atleast the friendship between us, i don't know if you still wanna be my friend but if you wanna go away, you can go away. it was just a little sad because i've defended you and standed with you for so long.
by Sonic4; ; Report
“Wow it’s just like mid-2024 were having so much fun!!” Yeah yeah whatever shut up. I’m not coming back, especially when cunts that I despise are just allowed back in like nothing happened
by The Rotary; ; Report
hartenny
i wish the best for you as well
you need a break man
and so do i