Friday(yes another vent-ish blog update)

Today was a rough day :( i’m getting 80s on assignmenys i usually get 90s on, i keep procrastinating and i stopped studying because of my headaches and distractions 

i’m starting to zone out more, everything is annoying me more and it’s not helping since i’m like a mother role to my friend group

i have to make sure that i don’t space out too much and if i do, i have to ground myself to snap me out of that feeling of disconnecting from your body and surroundings (i’m sure thats normal, anyway)

and then i have to take care of my friends that rely on me too much and want to talk to me and i have like 3 people talking to me at once and they’re all piling against each other, some of them keep taking my things and making me chase them. my violin broke because of this…

At lunch? they weren’t in good mood. Sometimes they take their anger out on me. One of them punched and choked me and the other kinda shoved my violin case to the side. I had to make sure one of my friends, having a literal autistic meltdown next to me could focus and calm down.

music class i spent the entire time trying to breathe and stay calm, the last period distracted me because people kept physically bullying my teammate next to me while the teacher did nothing

oh also i have another project, good thing school ends in like 10 days