HI my brain is growing

I am either maturing fs or can't feel anything anymore and not even in that "Omg... im so numb and depressed" like genuinely I don't TRULY have much of a reaction to anything anymore I kinda just accept things now type shit. like yes i do act like really dramatic but that's for the theatrics now and just for fun, it's not a genuine feeling like it was before anymore

I look back at my old blogs and it was lowkey apparent where like I was starting to mature (??) but I was lowkey forcing my anger to try to feel more normal idk (???) 

Not a vent just something I noticed idk it's a little odd that I no longer have those edgy ass tyrades, EVEN in my head