I've been thinking

I'm gonna be 20 soon.

I still don't particular know what to do with my life. It's been stagnant and slow, so much so that I barely think about the future much. Life is really monotonous. I wake up, watch yt, read manga, lurk some social media then go to work, come home, probably play a game, repeat. I go to school... well supposed to but I'm not doing so well on that lol. I've been thinking, do I really even want to pursue what I going to college for as a career? Should I just do it as a side thing or something? I'm thinking of changing course ig. 

I saw this commercial before going to bed a while ago and it stuck with me for some reason. Maybe I'd be better off going to culinary school after all. It's just a thought, one that's been popping up in my head for the last month now. I don't know if it's time to quit and do something else. What if I fail? What if I give up and there was no point. I have some worries but,,,ehhhh whatever. I might as well do it anyway yeah? This whole post was basically me talking out my own problems lmao, this shit sucks