oh! boys n shit

is this basically the consequences to my actions? is it my fault? no. okay. listen, i was going out(? no clue, he said we were just casually getting together but more on that later) with this guy for a while now and he literally, just yesterday, straight up after not replying to me: "It's been nice getting to know you, but I think the more we talk, the more I realize we're different people. I wish you the best." WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN?? 

listen, it could be my fault for ghosting him for 3 days but 
1) it was mother's day weekend
2) i had 2 tests the following week
3) i had a birthday party for my best friend to attend to
straight up what do you want from me...??

deadass, if it's about me replying to one of his friends a maximum of twice (when his friend only responds every 3 business days too) and not him then i dont know. did that guy snitch? who KNOWS GUYS HAHA! we have better chemistry anyway i mean who said that.

i didnt ghost him for a week, i didnt fully disappear like that. 3 days. WHICH is still a while but i literally told him "hey dont take it to heart if i ghost u bc im just busy with a lot" BECAUSE IM GRADUATING (hes first year uni) AND WHICH HE SAID "thats fine, take your time and talk to me when you can". DID HE FORGET? MAYBE? I DONT KNOW. 

i was literally just about to make a post about how i might just not continue with this guy but oh! the universe loves me and God loves me so they decide that hes gonna do it to me instead. mind you, he ghosted me for 2 days before just telling me "hey we're different, good luck" FYM WE'RE TOO DIFFERENT??? like that's a bad thing if we're diffrent? what???? did you want to makeout in the mirror to a carbon copy of yourself? what?

and yk, if hes upset about me talking to his friend that one time (mind u, me and the guy who broke it off get vulnerable and get into the nitty gritty, ME AND HIS FRIEND TALK ABOUT FILM AND MUSIC DAFUQ) then maybe... I DONT KNOW MEN ARE SO CONFUSING UGHHH. maybe he has a crush on him, thats why we took 10 minutes talking about his friend and his entire family at the dinner table where i met his mom at his house. lmfao. i met his mom. lol. that was great. 

anyways his friend and i have better chemistry anyway, people have BEEN telling me to pursue him instead and i just shouldve. yeah call me a slut but not my fault. maybe.  ive been into him but i wasnt gonna pursue 2 men at once, what am i? desperate? (maybe, maybe not). 

maybe im the red flag.. whatever fuck me and fuck all of this.