tough day today :(

i wasnt able to fall asleep until like 2 am.. and then i got really paranoid over a bug outside so i woke up at like 5 am.. still had to go to school... 3 hours of sleep!!! no wonder i always feel so drained after lunch, i seriously need to sleep more.

i went up to the vending machines, intending on getting a drink, obvs, and it ATE MY MONEY!! I WASTED 2 DOLLARS :( i went up to the administration about it and they just told me to call the number on the machine.. and even then, its not guaranteed i get my money back!! what a rip, i hate the school vending machines ;C

first hour was okay.. i guess. i was so hyperaware of literally everything, i could barely focus on my final review. i did get an extra 7 bonus points for my exam though, so thats nice :)

second hour, i got a gift from my teacher, a cookbook of all the recipes we did over the year. it was personalized too!! there were a bunch of photos of my work on the back + a few of me, and man, i did not realize i looked that awful with a hairnet on. it made me rethink all the times i had to put that thing on, my head looked MASSIVE!! my glasses werent really helping much either :/

third hour, there was a sub, and i thought we were gonna do some fun activites today, but instead i spent the entire hour listening to german metal radio and stressing about college. i was starving too, i didnt get anything to eat for breakfast since i was caught up with the whole "losing money" stuff.

4th hour was even more frustrating, i was watching a studio ghibli movie when this girl started giggling behind me, and even though it probably wasnt over me (or maybe it was, i get laughed at surprisingly often.), i couldnt help but get anxious over it. time went by so slow after i finished watching the movie, it felt like an eternity when lunch finally came.

i got my lunch, but then i realized that a lot of kids at my school are sick, and we all had to pick out forks and straws out of the same bin, so instead i just decided to eat my fries with my hands, and it got oil all over my fingers. the juice was way too cold, and it hurt my teeth really bad, and i couldnt find a seat, so i just ended up taking a few bites out of my burger and throwing the rest away. 

on the bright side, i told my stepdad about it, and we went to 7/11 :) i got myself an arizona, and he talked to me about what he does when he had his bad days, he typically gets something small, because the little things matter too :3 i also got myself some mini coconut donuts, theyre pretty alright, i suppose. (update: is it normal that they make my mouth burn a bit.. they arent warm or anything)

it was SOOO humid outside!! and 95 degrees too. (35 C) its only gonna get hotter from here.. second guessing my thoughts of getting a job this summer, ill have to bike in that weather. it gets up to like 110 here!!! i guess ill have to spend my first paycheck on a portable mini fan, ill attach it to my bike, and then ill pretty much have A/C. :)

ill just spend today chilling out, im too tired to think anymore -_- baiiii