Having a crush is AGONY

SO for a few weeks we’ve had an exchange student in my class and the first day my friend heard she’s from peru she was immediately like “we need to be friends wiht her so she can help us with spanish” so yk they told me to ask her (because my english is better than most of my friends’ and she doesn’t speak german) if she wanted to hang out with us during the break and she started sitting with us in class and stuff so we talk like every day now. So then i found out that she also likes to draw and that she likes my chem snd bowie (my favourite 2 favourite artists ever)

Then it was easter hols and i was enjoying my 2 weeks off school and in the second week i realise I’m actually excited to go back?? And i think about it more and realise it’s cuz i really want to talk to her????

So first week back in school i have a doctor’s appointment and don’t get to school until third period snd i’m SO upset because that means i barely get time to talk to her because we only had 1 class together that way. I just accepted it at that point cuz. What else would i do.? It’s not a big deal like just a silly crush yk it’s cool :p

Fast forward to last night she was in my FUCKING DREAM??? And not like as some random role like same as in real life or idk one of the tributes in the hunger games i was in (cuz i’ve gad that dream for some reason), NO it was like actual romantic shit so when i saw her in school today i just thought “oh.. :,)” so i’ve been thinking about that all day instead of literally anything else.

I don’t really get crushes it only happens like, once in a blue moon, so i have no idea how to even cope wiht this :[

Still i’m thinking of maybe possibly following dream-me’s example and just like asking her to hang out outside of school at least, i don’t think i have nearly enough courage to ask her on an actual date since idk she might be straight?? Most people are (sadly).