Growing up isn’t scary!

Growing out of your teens can truly seem scary. But trust me when I tell you it isn’t. The age where you are finally considered a young adult. 

It hasn’t been too long since I turned 20.. 3 months ago I believe. And yes at some point I did feel like I had to know many things already but getting older doesn’t mean that you must know about everything right away. People don’t just know things from blowing out their candles on their 19th birthday. It comes from experiences and asking around! 

When I was a younger teen my life was kind of in the trenches, almost my entire life was a “rough era”, at some point it came down to where that was all I know and so fast I lost hope in this world. I was only so young and all I remember was the many things that I felt that I have missed out on and the many things that I regret and more that I wish never happened. 

Trust me when I say it gets better. You’ll get better so much better, all that suffering will not be in vein even if it seems like it now. Just push on! Even if all you see is a huge brick unmovable wall. 

All my life I had anxiety, I get panic attacks whenever I had to go somewhere I’m forced to socialize and speak at school I was known as that quiet girl. I was a bubbly girl as a toddler, all that anxiety did not come from nowhere of course. But once I got into university after graduating at 17 I’ve gotten so much better! Especially because in my field of work we’re forced to socialize with many different people. It took me three years for it all to water down. Still my heart races when I have to talk sure but not as much anymore. 

The mindset I had set for myself after I graduated highschool was that once I go to uni. I’ll be someone that my wrongdo-ers will fail to recognize. Once you realize no one really cares and that it’s not a big deal to ask someone something you don’t know about, it’s not something to look down upon. It’s the opposite actually people love answering you, teaching you, providing you with help! And if someone is rude or mean to you then just back away and ask someone else! It’s not your fault that some people are mean and arrogant! 

I’m glad to say that i’am now better. I feel deeply so deeply better than how I thought I felt at 17. I was so miserable but look where I am now. And even if you think that this isn’t where you wanna be at this age and that you feel like you could’ve done more and achieved more at this age. 

Success comes with time. There is no age limit to where you “have” to be “successful” take your time, have fun! And give yourself breaks!

Take time for yourself, stay away from people you dislike and toxic ness. Sometimes the less the better. 

-Em