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I actually cannot stand livinf right now, i hate people, i hate myself, i hate the way im treated by everyone, fuck errbody at this point, except danny, i just hate my body, i hate my face, i hate my lips, i hate my skintone, i had my hips, i hate hate hate hate hate hate hate my tummy, i hate my voice, i hate my laugh i hate my hair i hate my legs i hate my hands i hate my eyes i hate my thighs i hate my intimate areas, i hate my everything, I HATE EVERYHING ON MY BIDY AND I CANT DO SHIT ABOUT IT i litterally just wanf fo yo kil myself, i just want a way out dude, and i cant tell my parents shit bro, the 3rd time they caught me cutting i was venting online and they said i was doinf it for attention, no i just dont have people to talk to, especially no you fucking dickheads, made me feel like it was my fault, when i used to cut i really wish i hit a vein, i hate how i am as a person i hate my personality im not funny, im not pretty, im not very kind, im just angry, and im not smart, i just hate myself so much, and danny if you read this im so sorry, for everything, i know u say im pretty but we both know thats not true, at all, im ugly and its okay, im sorry i cant be whag you deserve, you deserve a beautiful, funny, kind, smart woman, and im so sorry that i cannot provice that, although i might not be alive for much longer if i keep feeling this way, im so sorry, you deserve someone so much better then me, you are such a kind funny handsome man, and you have a great soul and personality, and again, im sorry i cannot match that, i understand if you are unhappy with me, im going to try to be better and funnier and i'll even wear makeup again so i can be pretier because u deserve it, im sorry
I wish i was dead
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wowzerg
I know it might not seem that way now, but pain is temporary. I hope this is of some consolidation to you, even if we don’t share the same beliefs. I believe we are put on this earth to improve ourselves spiritually and help others. Also, everyone- including and especially you- is of equal value to god regardless of physical qualities, imperfections or mistakes we’ve made. Sh and sucide won’t take the pain away. If you’re open to it, I’m open 2 talk and give suggestions as to how to take your mind off things! I’m no therapist, but it can sometimes help to talk to someone
I wish pain was temporary, ive been suffering since i was 7, cutting myself since 7, im clean now, but i still want to be dead, i cannot stand living
by fuckauyarii; ; Report
988 is the suicide hotline and they really can help to talk to also
by wowzerg; ; Report
thank you, but i cant call anybody, my mom has this whole weird shit set up on my phone, if i text anybody it HAS to go into my contacts, and she sees and can access ALL my contacts, and i have a ipad, i cant call i have to ft,
by fuckauyarii; ; Report
When I say pain is temporary, I mean on a larger scale than just this life. (Also I didn’t mean to put my second comment after ur reply I didn’t see it until after) Also yeah, that’s too bad… but that’s really great that ur clean now! If I could give a recommendation on something to do, this is what works for me and hopefully will work for u too..; read an uplifting book outside, try making a new healthy recipe, go for a walk, pray or do a kind act unprompted for someone. Something as simple as writing down a nice message or baking cookies or anything uplifting/kind can really help uplift your own spirits as well :)
by wowzerg; ; Report
Okay bet thank you....i wont pray as im an athiest but i'll try just about everything else
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