Toxic relationships.

I honestly hate relationships, or maybe it's just me who's doing something wrong. Every single time, I get into a relationship, it turns out to be the most toxic person. Known to mankind. Why can't I just have a lover, a lover that doesn't ask me to send noods. A lover that doesn't ignore me to play videogames and gets mad when I spam them or be upset at them for a good reason, because what do YOU mean, I'm begging to be single. I just want a god damn lover. Someone who can care for me, someone who understands me and deals with my mood swings. And it's always those same guys that promise they'll be with you forever. That they will supposedly change their selves for you, to become better. Liars. All of them are liars, they won't even accept that I'm trans male, they only see me as a girl. I want someone who can accept me, and won't ghost me, someone to hang out with basic relationship stuff, but I guess I'm not allowed to have that. I just sit there let them use me in order to feel loved. Everyone have a wonderful day.