Confused

This deleted so it was longer but I guess I should talk about right now and not the context

My ex is sending me so many fucking mixed signals and I don't know why. He unblocked me on some social media and imsg but wont check anything, he KNOWS I'm texting him but yk doesn't care, he says I'm not letting go (which I'm not I love him 4ever) but he interacts with me more then I do him, Im doing my own little things in a distance like making songs, matching him on roblox, rejecting guys cause Im saying I'm loyal and texting him love paragraphs BUT HE DOESNT KNOW THAT SO WHY IS HE STILL???? He added a song called “I hate that I love you” when we were going back and forth on Spotify. WE WAS COMMUNICATING THROUGH SPOTIFY ML PLEASE COME HOME :((?!?!?? I don't know how to feel because I really do love him and I don't plan on "giving up" anytime soon. Take your time and space to do what you need man, you have all my friends, you have everything I used to have and even after that feeling of being an option to my friends Im happy cause you need them, you need them to be happy, to feel purpose, to feel. I know that and it’s okay. I just don't want to be a joke. I want to conversate and find out the cause of all of this but I cant get the chance too cause he wont talk to me but I can talk to him. I miss him. I miss my baby so much. I hope he comes back, I want to love him. I love loving him and making him happy. Its hard right now, he's not ready to come back and I’m not ready to let him go. I miss him sm.