everyone at school thinks im dating my guy friend and thats all i am to them. im slowly starting to feel uncomfortable with him for other reasons

im honestly just so sick with everyone. at school, im never known as just, me. its always "___'s friend"  "___'s girlfriend" "hey are you dating ___?" like can you shut up?

and you might be thinking "how come this became such a big deal to everyone?"

well, as you must know, my guy friend is known as a weird kid. and thats saying something bc I'M weirder than him. but n e ways, everyone practically went berserk bc i was not only his first "real" friend, but bc i was "a female too" (quoted by my not so helpful classmate)

and yk what sux? people are convinced even more that we're dating bc we always eat lunch together alone. i always invite my other friends but you have to know that my guy friend is not likeable on the outside. he doesnt exactly upkeep hygiene, he always eats with his hands and never, and i mean NEVER washes them unless he goes to the bathroom. not to mention, hes always glued to his phone. even during class. his phone also has so many cracks thats its like a hazard of glass shards and all the food and oils that are on his hands rubs off onto his phone.

even he acknowledges all that and i try to help him change. but at the same time, he just doesnt want to. hes such a good guy when you talk to him but he has no social filter. like, none AT ALL. it gets so bad that he sometimes says creepy stuff about me indirectly, but he doesnt think any of it bc he thinks its okay.

i remember there was a time where there was this group of boys wolf whistling at us while we were walking back to class. when i dragged him back to our classroom he was infuriated. and then he said to me "i bet theyll come up to you and ask you if you give me bl0wj0bs in the boy's bathroom" and then he tried to imitate what he think those boys would say to me by saying "oh, do you unzip his pants with your teeth?" and "i bet your a slVt in the bathroom for him" and so on, so forth. i couldnt remember everything he said and i probably just pushed everything out of my mind. i ended up cutting him off mid sentence and the silence was dead between us.

i was just glad my gal friends overheard us and they made the excuse that i was going to help them on their schoolwork. i always thought abt what he said. he claimed that he never liked me and that i was just his friend but i thought whatever he said was some gross fantasy of his about me. after that day i also thought about not being friends with him anymore. but i just couldnt do that. not only bc i pity him for not having someone to talk to, but bc hes the only friend i have too. hes a real friend to me. sure, i have gal friends, but i just pop up every now and then to them. im not their genuine friend.

ofc, i cant look past at what he said about me or other questionable things he said, but he doesnt mean it that way. hes brutally honest and impulsively says everything thats on his mind. and thats bc he was raised that way. his home life isnt the best and i want to make his time at school fun.

so now im just, stuck. since im friends with my guy friend, i lost my chance at having any other friends. everyone is convinced that im as unlikeable as he is and thats why we're "meant to be"

im starting to hate him bc of it. and ik its not his fault. this school is tearing me away from him. but hes my friend and i want it stay that way forever