Words i want to say to her rightnow

Why does it sting more now than it did back then?

Would it hurt you as much it does me?

To see me with someone else

The way you are?

Maybe not

After all you wanted me to move on

But yet here I am stuck

And worse you've seem to have forgotten 

Was it intentional?

Why do you say he's the first

When you know damn well that's not true?

I hope you haven't forgotten that girl you where

When we fell in love

The things she said

But then again maybe forgetting 

Is your way of gaurding my heart 

Maybe moralship isn't just a fancy way of being friendzoned

But somthing you actually meant 

But I wonder if you'd notice 

If I broke my promise To live 

After all 

The version of you now

K!lled the version I promised to 

So if I disappeared would you notice?

And if you hate me so much now

Why haven't you used what you know about me

To destroy me? 

Maybe you respect me too much for that?

It didn't seem like it 

But maybe you've learned people change 

I'm someone better now

Because of you

I only live now

Because of you

But yet I'm also broken 

Because of you 

10 years now from our last embrace 

5 from our last conversation 

And yet I'm still only thinking

Of you

I want to go back in time

To fix this

I wonder 

What happened to that wish

That we could live togeather happily?

All our history 

And yet it means nothing

Who stole who's time?

Was it stolen?

Somthing feels wrong

It's felt wrong 

Ever since then

But whatever

Guess I'll try to move on again

Guess you where right when you said

You always hurt those closest to you

These scars can only be treated one way

But the doctor abandoned their job

So instead all I can do is nurse the pain 

Things weren't supposed to be this way

There was a time when we were both innocent 

And believed that was the way things would be

But you forgot that too

So why should I have expected you

To remember you'd promised

To hold on to me no matter what

Only one holding on is me 

You make me sick 

You make me worry

You never respond 

I'm at the point I'm tired 

You've broken your promise 

Should I just break mine already?

I mean

Why do you even care?

And do you really think I dont?