failing

so it turns out my bio professor actually DID give me a second chance for the book report worth 10% of my grade. And I gave up preemptively and didn't turn anything in at all. So I got a zero and I didn't even have to. 

I always give up right before I get a second chance and take whatever losses I get from it even when the people around me are literally giving me the opportunity to succeed. I'm close to failing the class now, my unrelated group project in the class is getting screwed over, and I didn't even respond to the kind email she sent me because I didn't even try !! I feel like I've disappointed her. 

Not to mention I still have to do a presentation, turn in two different essays, and do an impossible math exam by this wednesday. And I have work every single day of this week. 

I don't even have the energy to scream internally anymore!!