being unemployed ruined my life.

sadly in this generation getting a job is like winning the lottery, so many jobs hiring yet taking absolutley no one, and only offering casual work hours.

i was unemployed for almost 2 years until I have finally been able to find 3 jobs part-time and casual within the past month.

i did have one job for the past couple years but only worked one day out of the week which only gave me $100 cash in hand. as you can imagine that money would only last a day or two as i had to pay for things that i needed almost immediatley. it also meant that it would take me a month to save up to $400 which alone is horrible.

as a result of unemployment i found myself constantly being in the house laying in bed as i had zero motivation to do anything other than apply to millions of jobs, some that were even out of my skills or qualifications. i also was scared to go outside because everything in this world costs money, public transport, parking, fuel, food, drink, everything. so ig in a way to save the little money i had i would purposefully stay at home to avoid spending. 

as you can imagine being in the house all the time hardly getting any of my steps in and to cure constant boredom i found myself scoffing down a ton of food and sodas leading me to gain weight. I am actually shocked that i am not obese as I have a skinny fat build as of now and have only now started seeing slight changes on the scale due to my workplaces including me having to walk and lift stock loads constantly. but because my motivation was depressingly low eating was the only thing that gave me serotonin.

applying for jobs in itself was a nightmare all on its own. multiple job sites like Indeed, Seek & Jora etc. had many or little job actually trying to hire people, i noticed companies like Subway had advertised the exact. same. position. and. location. for the past year and everytime i applied i never recieved a single response. sketchy to say the least. many jobs that were posted hardly ever responded to my applications, it was a miracle if i was given an interview let alone a trial shift. a lot of jobs i applied for had me travel quite a distance just for them to reject me right there and then in the first 5 minutes of a so called "interview" leaving me even more hopeless.

it felt like a constant cycle of rejection and disappointment. i wanted my life to change drastically, and i was doing everything i could. its easy to assume someone who is unemployed is lazy and not trying to find a job when the reality is, is that no one is willing to give that person a chance. i was applying every day to every damn job that was posted even if it was a role i was not qualified for or have little to no expeirence with.

i wanted my life to change so badly yet the universe wasnt giving me a chance to despite my constant efforts. 

however once i gave up on relying off job websites to help me find a job, i decided to just contact random jobs in certain suburbs and emailing them an expression of interest. an easy google search of "cafes in (suburb)" opened a loophole of opportunities for me. i started actually recieving responses! i was given countless interviews and trial shifts. although some jobs wasted my time with giving me trail shifts knowing they werent going to hire me, i finally landed three jobs all in one week. some would say luck and to an extent i agree, but i  also believe my dedication was finally rewarded in the end.

by this point my life has significantly changed in terms of my finances and scheduele. Im finally able to get out the house, afford and buy things that can now come off of my wishlist and was finally moving. 

ive felt much happier and motivated the past month, but its hard not to look back at myself wishing for someone to actually bring me out of unemployment and a dark place.

unemployment was and is one of the hardest things any human being will ever expeirence, no matter what the circumstances were to leading them into their position or their pathway into getting out of it. being unemployed will really give you a taste of how difficult and immensley frustrating it is to be in a position where you are unable to do anything and be looked down upon by your family, friends and even strangers assuming youre lazy or unintelligent for being a position that you never asked to be in.