mixed feelings

For the past few years, my great grandmother has had this (very) distant relative living upstairs at her new-ish house. He's a specialist doctor whose family is from the same Lebanese village that my great grandmother grew up in. Much of his life was spent in Germany, and as such he spoke four languages: German, Arabic, French and English. While I rarely saw him, he was always pretty nice to me.

By next month, however, he is going to be gone. My great grandmother and especially my grandmother have been taking issue with his tenancy for a while, and I think he was aware of this tension for a while. I'm not sure how exactly it happened; if I remember correctly, I think my grandmother might have threatened to kick him out, and he responded by saying that he's been planning to leave for a while. Regardless, he's not going to be staying with her for much longer; in June, he's planning to move interstate, and I'll likely never see him again.

And it feels kinda weird, because while I am sad that he's going, I also know it's probably for the best. I fully accept that I probably haven't seen his "true colours", so to speak, and he did do many things that were pretty unfair on my great grandmother. He is incredibly stingy, paying only $100 board per week, without paying for water, electricity, etc. despite him being the richest person I know and my great grandmother being a pensioner. Despite getting such cheap rent, he would often help himself to her fridge, complain about her music and the noise from the tv, etc.. He would also leave for months at a time during which he would refuse to let anyone else crash upstairs, even if they were a visiting relative who needed someone to stay. While this isn't everything, you can definitely get the picture that she'd be better off with him out of the picture. Hence, I do feel somewhat guilty about being disappointed that he's leaving. And the most annoying part is that I'm literally the only person in this entire situation who feels this way. Even my mother found him uncomfortable to be around. So I'm definitely on my own in feeling this way.

Even though I had mostly given up on learning German (since when I last tried to learn it I found it interfering with my Japanese learning), I was seriously considering taking it back up again, given that I had someone (almost) in the family who speaks it fluently and who would presumably be more than happy to help me learn. In fact, the main reason I didn't is because I didn't know how I'd mitigate the awkwardness of going to my great grandmother's house to meet with someone other than her. Part of me wishes I just got over the weirdness and started learning anyways, but at the same time it's really too late to do anything now.

I dunno. As I said, it is, ultimately, for the best, and I'm sure I'll be over it soon enough. I guess I just needed to vent XD