Future Plans, etc.

I find myself incessantly thinking about my future self. Where will I be in a years time? Two years? Five? Ten? As an anxious person, it quite literally pains me that I do not have the answers to these questions. I think if I were to have the answer, everything about my life would be less stressful.

However, there is a sort of charming mystery to not knowing the answers to these questions. The fact that the future is completely unknown is the reason for so many dreams and ambitions. If the future was planned out from the start, life would (unfortunately for many of us) be extremely dull. Maybe it would get us excited for the path life is going to take us down, or maybe terrify us with details we never were supposed to know. Either way, it is probably better for everyone that we are left in the dark. 

I think the only thing that we, as humans, can do about this is to hope. Hope that our plans go exactly as they are visualized. Hope that we are still close to our friends and family down the line. Hope that nothing too unexpected or bad happens. It is truly exhausting to hope for these things each and every day, but I guess that is one of the things that makes us human and is something that separates us from the other animals on this planet. The ability to think like this and to visualize the lives ahead of us leading to our eventual demise.

As much as I absolutely despise it, I suppose it truly isn't all bad.