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Its currently 1:50-2:10 in the am, can't fall asleep cause of the heat.
Where I am it's gonna be a hot streak till Tuesday so this is probably continuing tomorrow.
So, like any other time I can't fall asleep the brain starts thinking, and thinking too much. Reviewing every action I made today, yesterday and any moment in the future.
Should've talked to my friends more, should've taken that energy drink I've been saving to power through my circadian rhythm, started making promises to myself that I probably wont keep because I haven't been able to keep the same promises in the past. All I hear now is deafening-headache inducing ring of the air-conditioner and the choppy whirring of my 10-year-old fan.
I should've talked to my friend about why she looked so sorrowful at prom because she looked as sad as I could've ever seen her.
I met the "(not so-)Secret Admirer" a couple of days ago and she's real nice (don't know if i should use her real name, use her handle, or just keep calling her the original thing i called her). She's Goth so I figured she'd be right at home with a lot of the other profiles I see.
I should have texted her, I told her I would but didn't. Woke up at 12 so the entire day happened so fast and I felt like a 2 am call would be too late even for her.
But live and learn, what are you gonna do? Spilled milk and launched missiles that sort of thing.
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catduck
I think its good to think about all the things you could have done better. Just admit what occurred occurred and just try to make each day better you know. As long as its from a perspective of damn I could do that better next time and not damn I should have done this and now all these bad things are going to hypothetically occur in my life. Because looking at what you can improve is good but looking at all the potential bad from actions you have done and only regretting what you did isn't going to change anything.