Mother's Day 2025

It's still Mother's Day here for a little while longer and I had actually forgotten about it until I settled in to watch a couple episodes of Common Side Effects (so excited to finally be getting to see it btw) and Nick says "Moms.....you only get one of those...." or something to that effect. Remembering the holiday came suddenly but it was easy to push it back out of my mind as I continued watching the show, that is until I sat down at my desk for the first time in a while to do some digital sketches to dump brain brain before bed time and decided to listen to the Slow Pulp album Moveys. When the song "Track" came on, the sting I felt earlier came back. I'll link it at the end of the entry but in the meantime I'll just post the text lyrics here:

"You wait for a spot on the track again
You're painted like an old pearl strand
Feeling old ways
Call it gone days

And I love the crossing lines on your face
Hope you feel the same
You're a nice day
A forgotten place

Away
Do you recall my name
It's okay I'll stay
Love you the same

I'll try to salt the fruit like you did
But it doesn't fit
In a lost state
Not a mistake

Today
I will recall your name
I see you in my face
Love you always

A lot has changed
Always
So much has stayed

Today
I will recall your name
I see you in my face
I will recall your name
I see you in my face
Love you always
Love you always
Love you always"

My relationship with my mom has always been strained and complicated and even though she hurt me in a lot of ways that still haunt me even after all this time, sometimes she was the only person who believed in me. My mom is still alive but she isn't an active figure in my life right now because it was impossible to heal while still letting her chaos seep into the world I've been trying to build for myself. Even though a few years have passed, it's not something that I feel good about but I know I'm doing the right thing.

I hope that wherever she is right now, she can feel peace and is learning how to Trust & Love again. I wish we could be celebrating this day together but since we can't, I will just love her in my own way.

I love you, Mom. Thank you for teaching me how to stand up for my principles and how to analyze & enjoy media.


—Sage

Listen to "Track" here