crash out

i don't get how the the fuck the two girls i used to talk to everyday i now cant have a single conversation with them without crying like i genuinely hate them now and its driving me insane. one is my first love and the other was my bsf since 2nd grade and last year we were all so close we did everything together and it was so amazing until my gf broke up with me for no reason what so ever and it sucked cus i didn’t just lose her cus took my bsf too and i had no one to help me. then randomly months later they add me to a gc and like i was fine with being in a gc with them till they fucking started to attack me. i hava trouble with spelling and reading im lwk illiterate and they bully me so much for it and i dont get why they want me in a gc just to use me as a punching bag they only text me to fight and say im the problem that its just a joke. everytime i try to leave the gc they add me back and its so annoying i wish we could go back to normal and be friends again but i hate them so much now. i hate how they still are yhe same people but now they just decided to hate me.