Right now

I’ve come to the conclusion that I am simply just destined to be miserable. 

It’s as simple as that. I don’t even want to deal with these men. I fucking hate all of them. Selfish man-babies. I’m just over it. 

I hate my life and I just don’t want to do this anymore. 

I will just never be good enough to get what I want out of life. The love, the affection, the good treatment. Everyone says they care but nobody legitimately gives a fuck unless they are getting something out of it. Getting something out of you. 

I’m not anything that anybody wants or that anybody wants to deal with. 

If I survive this, it will be a miracle.