chat am I an addict

Okay so basically I've always smoked, probably not a good thing but in the environment I was raised in I was surrounded by drugs in and out the house so I've been doing this shit for years. I feel like I've never had a REAL addiction to it though, as in I've never replied on it when I'm down, and I've taken breaks years long. Lately, I in fact HAVE had an addiction.

Bad day? I need a joint, Feeling existential dread? I'm chiefing the cart I brought even though I already have nugs sitting in my stash, stressed out? as SOON as I get home I'm smoking my atp probably tiny lungs out. It's low-key gotten bad I'm smoking it throughout the day and shit, but I'm trying to cut back cause I realize being high for more then a day or two days straight ISN'T normal and it kinda makes me feel like shit afterwards, but FUCK IT FEELS GOOD.

And I never smoke anything else besides sativa, never got into nic cause I don't see the appeal of bubblegum surprise vapor, so while I'm high I'm super fucking productive, like I get so much work done even my teachers are confused and by the time I'm sober ever things done, so it's not just the fact I like the feeling of being high even though I do, the productivity's defiantly more of a factor too. Anyways I AM cutting back, I just gave the last of my weed away as much as it hurt my soul, I'm out of rolling papers and my carts almost drained so I won't buy another one any time soon.

Hopefully I don't absolutely lose it.