mothers day

yeah i know everyones posting about today but i wanted to get this down. my mom is so emotionally unstable its insane. i finally understand that i can both feel bad for her and want to leave at the same time. this household is not healthy for me in the slightest and i am so grateful im leaving in september. im tired of being treated like a bad child. i do my best for this house and its not my fault that my siblings and dad do basically nothing to help. hell my 9 year old brother does more for this house than my nearly 50 year old dad. every problem we have can be stemmed to him. i hate him. sorry, off topic. anyway i know she deserves better, but i also know i deserve better and im tired of being yelled at and hearing her yell all the time. i love my mom but i cant do this anymore. i am never permanently coming home after this no matter what