6. ✩✩ My sleep paralysis ✩✩ 11.5.2025

These are my personal experiences I would like to share! I suffer from sleep paralysis for years now. These past years  it has been  less frequent since my mental health isnt THAT bad but sometimes it comes to say hi :D 

My sleep paralysis experiences

Around 14 I started to struggle with sleep paralysis episodes. Right now I mostly have these, random and weird episodes of me not sleeping but getting paralysed while trying to sleep and if I dont fight it I enter the sleep paralysis episode, having mostly audio hallucinations? To those also having sleep paralysis, do you also experience this? I know its coming when I feel weird feeling of tension in my chest and heart, then feeling getting paralysed from my chest to my limbs (I need to move my fingers quickly to "cancel" it), after fighting it, it can come back like 5 times, I need to get a break from sleeping and just wait some minutes or even hours. Sometimes I let it take me and audio hallucintions starts, mostly radio noises or just feeling of not being alone (sometimes Im just so curious about these weird were episodes that i want to know what happens).

ANYWAYS

My first ever sleep paralysis experience was really interesting but at the time scary. I was sleeping on my side when suddenly I "woke up" and just felt chills down my spine and then whole body, I couldnt move. After some time I started to float from my bed and panic. It felt like I was getting out of body experience but it wasnt that, but I was scared I would get one. Had to sleep with light after that one. When I tried to go back to sleep it came back right away, so I had to take some time just laying  before trying to sleep again (after waking up from the paralysis a key suddenly fell in the kitchen, the keys werent even at the edge, it was really scary night and I though ghost was here haha)

My second sleep paralysis was more scarier, I was sleeping on my back when it happened. I couldnt move but also couldnt see, just felt I wasnt alone in the room, it was so chilly. Suddenly I felt someone on my chest and I had trouble breathing, something was pushing its big hands and claws against my chest. This type of paralysis was more common for me. 

My third experience was pretty... weird and scary? I was having a dream until it was suddenly interupted, I was in my bed and in my room. I was staring at the baby carriage toy when it suddenly moved and I heard little girls laughing, thats when I "woke up", couldnt see anything again, couldnt move. I just felt presence of something laying near me. Thats when i felt little girls cold hand taking mine, holding it. That was the whole episode, just me holding little girls hand.

I had more, just these are my common episodes I have when I have one. Plus these are my first. :)) 

Im still sad that I NEVER saw the demons/hallucinations during these tho, I always had closed eyes for some reason, couldnt open them. I heard people could see their entire room during it or not even able to close their eyes, I have it opposite. Sometimes I dont know if I should be glad or not... kinda wanna see my sleep demon ;( 

K thats all.. bye bye