#1 - Writing struggles

It's so tough writing fanfics in my native language

Because 

no.1 - there aren't a lot of people who speak it, and also read fanfiction

no.2 - I basically never practice writing creative works in Lithuanian, and my thought process as a result is much slower compared to English

no.3 - I don't know why, but not all of the au ideas that I come up with seem to 'fit' that language, idk, it's strange, I honestly don't know how to describe that feeling.

no.4 - Sentence structures seem to be a lot different, and I struggle to make them sound right

no.5 - I just forget words in my native language, it's kind of embarrassing and I am sort of ashamed of it that I don't remember the Lithuanian translation to some English words.... and that also stunts my writing process because I have to go and look it up,,,,

Sorry if I repeated myself here and there, I am just so frustrated that I can't easily write in my native language,,,,,