ill-fitting social anxiety and malevolent mocha (っ- ‸ - ς)

HAII GUYSSS,
Okay so i had a careers expo thing in my school today, and obv other schools were gonna be there so i locked in and told my friends (two-tone, tiny, and walter) that we were going huzz hunting and i was NOT coming back without a huzz (spoiler alert : didn’t pull anyone). but tiny went with her friend i have beef with so i stayed with twotone and walter. Now walter and crazy are together (nonchalantly dating, of course, with him prioritising his ‘entrepreneurial career’ and walter focussing on every fine shyte she sees) so they really wanted to find crazy so they could talk or whatever so i followed them as they were scouting down that ranga chuzzatron.

༺｡° .ᘛ𓆩♡𓆪ᘚ. °｡༻༺｡° .ᘛ𓆩♡𓆪ᘚ. °｡༻༺｡° .ᘛ𓆩♡𓆪ᘚ. °｡༻༺｡° .ᘛ𓆩♡𓆪ᘚ. °｡༻༺｡° .ᘛ𓆩♡𓆪ᘚ. °｡༻༺｡° .ᘛ𓆩♡𓆪ᘚ. °｡༻

Now as the name of this entry suggests, i have social anxiety (duh) and it’s a VERY core concept in this story. So keep this in mind Skeevies.

Now because there were not only people from our school, but also HUZZ i did NOT want to be alone. But Walter and Twotone might be THE most infuriatingly and stubbornly nonchalant people in the milky way, because they kept DISAPPEARING. One instance where they pulled an eshay Houdini led me to be alone for like ten minutes scrambling by myself and looking like an IDIOT that was lost and scared like a lost little rabbit bruh.
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but whilst i was with them i saw MULTIPLE fine shytes (including this GORGEOUS man that was wearing a blazer (for his uniform), GUYLINER, a cool haircut, and this fucking face oh my dayssssss), and blazer boy made eye contact with me for a second and i went RED, so my friends kept dragging me with them to follow him around begging me to ask him out, and i was deadass like “bro i’m pretty sure he is either taken or gay, so nuh uh no way” and when we lost him i INSTANTLY regretted such pusilanimous and naïve hermit-like actions, and as i was silently wondering the packed convention centre, i was regretting my shyness so bad because that guy was so fine it made me WEAK. Then we saw him again and the determined bravado vanished and i was red again, begging my friends to not ask him out on my behalf. And call me a MASSIVE hypocrite but like, now that i’m on the bus back to school I WISH I ASKED FOR HIS INSTA OR SNAPPPPP (even tho he looked 17 and gay asf).
༺｡° .ᘛ𓆩♡𓆪ᘚ. °｡༻༺｡° .ᘛ𓆩♡𓆪ᘚ. °｡༻༺｡° .ᘛ𓆩♡𓆪ᘚ. °｡༻༺｡° .ᘛ𓆩♡𓆪ᘚ. °｡༻༺｡° .ᘛ𓆩♡𓆪ᘚ. °｡༻༺｡° .ᘛ𓆩♡𓆪ᘚ. °｡
So anyways, when i found walter and twotone after their houdini incident i called them assholes for disappearing when i TOLD THEM i was js gonna say hi to a friend (lets call him maxibon, but if you’re on my favs list you’ll know him by another name IYKWIM [g**m*n]), and of COURSE they swept my anger under the rug as if i wasn’t holding back tears and a shit load of nervous sweat when i was looking for them.
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so i just told them i wanted a coffee and they came with me (because i begged them to), and i paid $7 for a small ass mocha but like it’s chill. Now this FUCKING MOCHA had one of those flimsy plastic lids, and i, being the foolish little ferret i am, TRUSTED IT TO KEEP THE FUCKING COFFEE INSIDE THE CUP. But alas, when i drank it, it dribbled on me, and i trusted it AGAIN, for the next 5 TIMES, until i had a large amount splattered on my WHITE school shirt. i then took the lid off and just drank my coffee without it.

I was pissed, huzzless, and now a hot coffee-stained mess. So i walked with twotone and walter again, in my own world as i silently scouted out ALL the cute nerds i saw, until it was getting to the time we had to get back to the rendezvous point to get back on the busses. now, mind you, the busses were leaving in 5 minutes and we had to get to our mentor group for them to do the roll then had to get on the bus - in theory it seems easy as fuck, but when a bunch off loud high schoolers are involved, it become extremely LESS manageable - but they wanted to do ONE more lap.
༺｡° .ᘛ𓆩♡𓆪ᘚ. °｡༻༺｡° .ᘛ𓆩♡𓆪ᘚ. °｡༻༺｡° .ᘛ𓆩♡𓆪ᘚ. °｡༻༺｡° .ᘛ𓆩♡𓆪ᘚ. °｡༻༺｡° .ᘛ𓆩♡𓆪ᘚ. °｡༻༺｡° .ᘛ𓆩♡𓆪ᘚ. °｡༻ TWO THINGS that i hate more than ANYTHING is being in trouble and being alone. So it was then that i had to make a choice - i was to either be late with them or keep out of trouble but be by myself- and i, a pussy, left without them.
so i awkwardly walked out of the centre, getting looks from really pretty people due to my unfortunate shirt stains until i got back on the bus and sat next to Tiny, writing most of this blog as i sat on the bus.
That’s all Skeevies !! I’ll catch yall next time !! As always, lots and lots and lots of love, SKEEVER xoxo

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