The final stretch

The end of my final internship is approaching rapidly, and with it the end of the entire course. This internship started with a lot of frustrations, getting sick in the first week and being "stuck" for weeks in a theatre creation that was very interesting, but not that educational in technical terms. But in the last few weeks I've found myself growing as a technician, and as a person. 

I got the amazing opportunity to do another, shorter creation, but this time as THE sound tech. Obviously, I was super nervous at first, I'd never done this before, and the creators were asking a lot of us. It simply seemed impossible. The rehearsals didn't get on as fast as we wanted them, and the young actors they were working with had never even been on a stage before, which came with its own onslaught of issues. The entire process was pure chaos, a lot of stuff didn't work out the way we wanted to, but honestly? I'm proud of myself, and everyone in the process. 

Up until the first show I had no idea what to expect of it all, and I didn't fully feel it. Now? I'm heartbroken at the idea of it ending already. The kids have grown so much in such a short period of time, and the creators have really started to shine in their process. The show itself has gotten to be so touching and real, and to have been a part of that is so special to me. 

Tomorrow is our last show, then I'm touring with another show for a week, and that's it. I always build such a fierce connection to the places I visit and the people in them, and I'm horrible at goodbyes. And not only am I saying goodbye to my internship, in a little over a month I'll be saying goodbye to all my classmates with who I've spent most of my time the last 9 months. In 4 weeks we'll have our final project, which we haven't actually planned anything for yet, and then it's only a few weeks before we're thrust into the real world to find jobs.

I don't know what else to say other than I'm sad, and I probably shouldn't have been listening to Jeff Buckley while writing this lmao.