vent/rant

Its been a while since I posted anything on here, a lot of time has passed and a lot of things have happend. I just need to clear my mind a bit so if you wanna read this then you're welcome to.

I broke up with my bf of 6 months, he was a nice guy but didn't do fucking anything. Also not romantic at all and it bothered me, I feel bad for breaking up with him but id alo feel guilty for lying to him even longer so I think I made the right decition on that.

Also partly broke up with him because I reconnceted with an old friend, we flirted a bit and I liked him more then my bf and I felt horrible about that. But now the 'friend' keeps being sexist to me and mean and just making weird comments?? I don't really know what to do about it...

I tried to make new friends but then they made a discord server, found new friends and abandoned me in the span of like a day.

I kinda miss my first ex, even though he was a weird dude he genuinly cared about me and would listen to me.

I don't know what to do with all of this, my love life is failing