perception...

whenever people reveal bits of how they perceive me it honestly hurts my brain. i can't imagine people comprehending me in their mind for some reason. i love human connection and talking to people and having friends but i don't always remember that there are two sides of existing. i think about people all the time. i see my loved ones in little things like if i smell a certain scent, if someone speaks in a certain cadence that reminds me of someone else.. other people complete envelop how i live. i in no way think i am the only real person.. it's hard to explain i guess. the best example i can give is just someone sending me something and saying "hey, this reminded me of you!" like wait, you can think of me when i'm not even around? thats awesome thank you wow.. my favorite is probably when i become friends with someone and they tell me they always wanted to be my friend before we ever talked. it's so sweet. gosh i love people (my friends)