about an album, about some feelings, about cartoons n' screens

there's not a pinpoint song I can say I have a favorite over in the album, but i can quote one from the song "a song about a cartoon" at 11:52 in the OFFICIAL ALBUM STREAM of I WANT TO LOVE AGAIN by doefriends.

"You're not real

 but you're real to me

 you make me smile when i see you on my screen

 ~on my screen

 maybe some day we'll find a way

 to make this longing go away

 I wish you knew me like I know you.

 I wish you knew me like I know you.

 I know~ you~" 

I found this album after seeing Cecily Renns put one of my favorite albums on her list and decided to find out what their list was about with my favorite album that year included. I listened for a bit (Haven't finished). It took some time to adjust to the words, and it's themes but I ended up liking it.

Being honest it was a top ten for me during late 2024, around the time their aoty list I found it on.

Each song makes me feel like a mess. I could be wrong, but something just resonates this album with me with "how to feel alive" and "a song about a cartoon".

It even manages to make me feel stupid in a way for liking it, how I relate to knowing characters behind a screen for years, that song ruined me honestly.

I've always had an affinity with fiction since my somewhat after school lonesome childhood where tv shows and Youtube videos became my primary source to forget everything, a way to sleep the world away.

some of these feelings about characters, screens. transfer over to the internet side of social interactions or me as well, a big well of parasocial feelings that l want to get over already.

you make me smile when I see you on my screen.