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Why are breakups the worst thing ever, they make me want to never date again but like idk. WELL I do know, I enjoy having someone be my other half, my compliment. I thought I found that, at least I feel like I did. I pray silently hoping that he will come back but I know there is a low chance of that happening. I actually have not thought about him like before. I was having a hard time and was told I should send a letter of how I felt, not as a last ditch effort to get back with him, but a chance to help myself move on. And it worked but for some reason tonight I have been so hguhrhugrhuwr. I think its the whole "sad music will put you in a sad mood" and now I cant escape cause these songs are really good, just they hold a feeling to them I had associated him with. It sucks when people tell me "make new memories to enjoy the same things with a new meaning in it" but like I had these songs, shows, videos, and movies dedicated to this person. It was always how I showed my gratitude towards someone, have something dedicated to them. It has its own downsides, like now where I no longer talk to this person I had a deep connection to and now I am constantly reminded of how much I loved them because I have these medias that I dedicated to them so hard its sunburned onto my skin. I know eventually I will fully be able to move on. This could be a one night thing, like a final goodbye of this period of time with someone I enjoyed. However things did not work out for a reason, there were times I was struggling with no help, but I would be there for them no matter what. Focusing on the positive, good times will morph my perspective on how I move on, and it is not going to be healthy. For crying out loud at some point in time I wanted to break up with this person but I did not. I didn't want to be alone for the first time in 3 years, fear controls me and I have to find a way out. I think everyone has a reason for their actions, and I always find a way to understand others, but for some reason I cant figure myself out and it is so frustrating.
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Sauce_Master2000
Feelin' what you're going through friend. Recently experienced being the one to end a relationship and it felt just as gutwrenching as being asked to break up. Personally, I'd write a letter to myself rather than sending it to him, as a way of reflecting on the good and bads of what once was rather than sending a farewall laden with many raw emotions that've yet to be processed. As much as we yearn for companionship and affection, I urge you to give yourself time to heal and allow your mind to draw this chapter of your life to a close.
You may be lonely now, but you're not alone my friend, never forget that. :^)
Thank you!!
I had already sent the letter I mentioned, should've made that clearer lol, and I did feel better and honestly after writing this whole blog out helped me a ton. I find these "letters" really helpful for me just that sometimes I need to tell it out loud every so often. :3
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