wuld it be so terrible if i died

i reallllly dont wanna be alive ima be so fr, it feel like im trapped, my parents have me homeschooled and in the woods, and we dont even have a car yet, so we always have stuff delivered to us, fuck dude, would it hurt soo bad to just go to the fucking beach? Would it hurt to let me have an actual childhood instead of just being like "ur in ur room all the time why dont u socialize?" Socialize with my family whom i see everyday? Dont u think it would be better maybe to let me talk to kids my age who i have stuff in common with, oh or maybe let me have fuckinf friends? Goddamn dude, its so fucking stupid, i get it i get it omfg ur introverts, idc, im not, locking me away isnt fair just because u dont like people doesnt mean u get to take away the fuckinf fun in my life, i rarely go out, and when i do its to go grocery shopping with my grandma or for a birthday or holiday, which i get, is great, but i dont get to do shit, we just go to teh store and go home or go to my grandmas house and go home, i would like to maybe get a skateboard and skateboard for like an hour, or maybe idk go to my friends house, oh wait, i have no real life friends because you guys have me fucking locked away, god, i get it i sound like i's overreacting, but im legit a child, dont u think i wanna do fun stupid shit with my friends, but no, we have to live in a place where even people with our address cant find us or we have to fucking flag them down, whats the point of even living anymore?