Why is being home while others are at school so stressful💔

First I have to convince my mum to let me stay home and for that I have to get up, try to get ready for school and then tell her that Im feeling bad which I actually am, asking for help like medication or sum and then ask to stay home and then I dont even want to sleep anymore. that is fake👎

And after I get out of bed the second time and I dont friggin know what to do so I remember school work but I dont have the material for that work so Im basically cooked so I just stress about that the whole rest of the day and when its 16 pm and everyones home again I get the idea to watch something on tv🤨

im too lazy to do anything bruh