life lately

Lately I feel very empty. i'd like to play it off as some emo episode but there something genuinely wrong with me these past few days. Mother's day is in a few days, and as much as i'd like to behave, i cant help but be a terrible person. Maybe im too harsh on myself and others. 

Something deeper has been nagging me in the back of my mind from my recklessness and the bottled up envious feeling thats slowly eating me inside. 

Sometimes i catch my eyes looking a little too dull and tired. It scares me a lot.

some days im fine and the others i feel down. My life isnt that bad either and i think theres just something deeply wrong with me. 

my chest hurts.

I dont know if the things im doing is a cry for help or attention seeking.