uncertainty

Yesterday I kept thinking about writing my first blog, about all the stress I had about my college and how uncertain I was about multiple things.

But it's pretty much crazy how fast your life can change because just last night we got attacked and now we're pretty much at war. Which made me realize how temporary all these things in our life are, how temporary we are. I didn't know how much the people in my life mattered until now and how much I love the way things usually are. I couldn't even sleep last night and I don't think I'll be able to until we're out of this entire situation. The constant fear of getting bombed or a sudden blackout is way too much (considering the fact I have nyctophobia) and the funny part is, I've been thinking about this, for almost a year now. I always thought one day I'll face one of my biggest fears and that one of being bombed but now that the chances are high of it actually happening, I don't want to face it

(lol this got way too serious than I had intended, alsoo english isn't my first language so bear with me XD)