Gender? I hardly know her

I've known I was somewhere on the non-binary spectrum for many, MANY years now, but still haven't really taken any steps to actually do anything about it. Like my friends know, my fiance knows, and I'm pretty sure lots of other people know, it's just none of them do anything about it either. I was raised in a place where things like gender and sexuality aren't really discussed at all, and if they are, it's usually in a negative light. Coming out as queer was kinda easy because it wasn't something i never really hid. I've never really hidden my gender identity either, but it's just not something others accept as well, I guess? I have my pronouns everywhere, but I don't correct people when they mess them up. It didn't used to bother me, but as I'm getting older, it's getting more annoying. But, inevitably, if I correct them, there follows the conversation of them "not really getting it" and "they don't understand why people get so defensive about it." BITCH ITS MY LIFE! i never try to be rude and most the time i just decide to drop it cause its easier and id rather not be called that liberal dyke everytime i come around. 

the other part of this is the self doubt that comes with correcting them. i know gender discovery is one of those things that can change over time and its totally okay if it does, but i know if mine does in the future i will never hear the end of it from anyone. i don't want to fuck this up so i don't say anything and hope that maybe one day it'll just click that I'm not actually a weirdo with weird pronouns being weird about said weird things. 

It's me for crying out loud. I should care about myself and not others' feelings when it comes to who I am. Maybe one year, I'll finally get the balls to actually stand up for it.