is it that hard to ever take a hint? (please excuse the rant i had to get it out somehow.)

Do you ever wonder if your friends hate you? I sure do sometimes, but, do you ever wonder? Is it not obvious sometimes? Because, I find myself in a situation where i clearly display my thoughts, present my feelings, and I'm not one to lie, so the truths the truth, hurtful or not. This truth is then taken by the receiver, thrown out, as if the truth was never there. And, it lingers. And the air hangs heavy with the thrown out truth, because the receiver just doesn't accept it. 

I'd like to know. If, say, you keep arguing over and over with a friend. It wont stop. Day in, day out, and they just irritate you, and now its gotten to the point you can only look at them in disgust. You clearly display your feelings, and express how you simply cannot manage to even muster up a twinge of familiarness or relation with that person, and they don't speak to you, just pretends like you're on okay terms. When obviously you're not. That persons just being ignorant. Always acts confused when they're being caught out.

Now imagine the same scenario. Except like my case, you're disabled. You cannot walk a flight of stairs because of your severe spine issues, therefore needing to use the school lifts. You don't speak to your past friend, but they still use you for the lift; following you in as if you're some sort of walking pass. You'd feel stupid, wouldn't you? To have someone you absolutely despise pretend like everything's fine, and not say a word to you, but still have the audacity to follow you like a fucking dog and USE you for their benefit? Pardon? A white cis-male in this society, using the disabled for his advantage because he cannot be bothered to walk a few steps. I'm not sure if this sounds sexist, or anything, but it really as a whole isn't about the fact said person is a guy. He's ignorant.

When me and said friend were still in the arguing day in day out stage, I used to talk to my other close friends about it, whom also had relations with him. They always and I mean AALWAYS told me, to stop being mean, and to let him stay in the group despite the amount of shit he causes. They want me to pity him, but I'm done. I'm done subjecting myself to literal mental torture because someone else thinks I should do otherwise. Ill prioritise myself. I'm not letting a man use me as a doormat when I'm the vulnerable one. His victim complex wont get fucking fed anytime soon. Not by me.

So, instead of tiring yourself out. Please, just drop a bitch every now and then.