3am and sleep deprived

playlist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/24KxaSn9rXM8NOECbZzqCF?si=aedc29f081c84bcb

hey guys, its like 3am and unfortunately i have school today and i might be regretting at the moment writing this blog but it is too late anyways so this blog is gonna be kinda random where i kinda both talk about my dreams that i kinda remember and also get to talk about how my life has been the last month so i think i might list out certain moments last month that i have remember.

important moments that have happen in april:

- spring break was alright

- i celebrated both my dad and my dog's birthday (my dog is 16 now)

- i finally got myself to practice guitar and realizing i needed to buy a left-handed guitar (lol)

- i finished my community service hours

that's all i can think of which i know is not much but to be honest april for me was pretty much a normal month for me and i think it is good for me at least because i do self-deprecate a lot when it comes to having like one bad day during the month and all my negativity flows again until i decide to move on it which i mean is kinda like how everybody else experiences having a bad day in their life i guess? idk but anyways lets talk about my recurring dreams

Recurring Dreams

so my dreams have been mostly going to the movie theater, or either going to some random school or college and going to the mall but its mostly been going to a random movie theater. Sometimes when i do see something on the screen it would happen like this:

- there would be a movie i would remember watching but its something else entirely different from what it was originally

- something fucking horrifying would appear and i would either wake up from that or try to not look at whats happening while i'm still in the dream

- there would be a moment on the screen that would happen again in my dream but this time im in that moment where i have already remember that specific moment that i've already seen afterwards in that movie

- on the other hand if there is a certain character in that movie then that character would reappear again but this time i'm in that moment where this character and i meet each other

when i was looking up on the internet to find like interpretations of having that recurring dream i remember it would mostly say that having a recurring dream like that means that either i have a lack of control in certain areas in my life, trying to escape from something or reality entirely, or wanting a huge outcome to happen in life like moving to a different country. Those are the things i can say i sort of relate but i'm not sure i feel like these dreams happen often but i experience them for a short amount of time but about my dreams going to a random school/college campus I would most likely just walk around and sometimes do talk to people in my dream and sometimes it would be familiar people but mostly random people i have never met, could be that it indicates that i will meet people in my life in the future but i don't really think so because i meet random people at my high school mostly in my dreams but i don't talk to anybody when i'm at some random college campus in my dream but i guess that is because that specific dream rarely ever occurs again its mostly me being at a different high school

Conclusion

well that is all i can think of sadly, if you have any idea what it could interpret because i feel like everybody has different interpretations about their recurring dreams, my interpretation for my dream is basically wanting to detach from being in my life right now and wanting to have a different lifestyle or whatever. Is this a blog just to basically share my spotify playlist? i mean yeah because i felt like it idk that's all i've gotta say bye i guess