...what to do...if you lost everyone?

I don't know what to do...

I feel...empty and broken.

At first...everything was fine. I decided to confess my feelings to the one I liked. He reciprocated my feelings and we started dating.

My friend wasn't happy about this news - she just disappeared from online.

At first everything was going well, but then...he started changing. It showed up in little things.

He started going out late - I didn't tell him this, but I waited for him and only closer to the morning he returned home. I was very worried...

Then...he started smoking. Even if he brushed his teeth, the smell of tobacco did not go away. It felt like even if he was naked - the smell would not go away, it was so saturated with cigarette smoke. With notes of alcoholic drinks.

Then...he started acting strangely with me.

At first I thought that he considered me his equal. I could feel like an adult... I thought that everyone did it: fall in love, date, talk about intimate topics.... and... probably do "that". 

But with him everything is different - he told me that despite our "insignificant" age difference - I was ready for everything, including intimacy. 

On the one hand - it made me tremble with unknown sensations, but on the other hand... I was afraid. I was not ready for this. And obviously this made him disappointed... 

At this time, I tried to contact my friend - he seemed to ignore me, and when I tried to get her to talk - she looked at me as if I had betrayed her. 

And then... he left. Just left. 

My friend never came back either. 

.... I lost everything.

P.S — D, If you're reading this, I'm really sorry I didn't listen to you back then...please come back....

C.C